Am i cold?...

Remember about the friend i told you about? The one who i became real close with in a very short time? well to be honest, i did like him at first coz he acted the way my crush in manila did...but then as we were txting and hanging out, i liked him for who he was... but then i felt that it wasn't right to developed feelings for him, coz first he treats me as a little sister, next he's leaving soon.... so i started calling him older brother, for the feelings to fade...and well i was successful! :3 hehe i treated him like an older brother and well we became more closer ^^...so days passed, when we're together we usually laugh, because we act so weird! xD honestly we do! we're like real siblings! hehe and that made me miss my real kuya...anyway back to the topic! And then i heard from a friend...that he also likes me... and guess what? his reason is the same as mine! he's leaving soon....man when i heard that...i didn't feel a thing...i don't know why...but i didn't feel Kileg nor sad at all...so i got confused...i mean why didn't i react?...which is weird for me coz im so emotional...i just realized that maybe...i really don't like him anymore...but then...am i cold?...

ANyway! so much for being cold...i think...im sacred of having feelings towards a guy...first of all I KNOW he'll mess up my dreams...second, i KNOW he'll hurt me in the end,...third, I KNOW i'll be more mature than him,....fourth, I KNOW he'll not be serious about me,...Fifth, I KNOW he'll make my life harder...i know my perspective over relationships is wrong...but hey... al im asking is..am i cold? or am i just a normal teen girl?...

There's this guy iin school that's a cold dude, as everyone says..but wen i got the chance to talk to him, he wasn't cold at all! i mean, does a girl realized a guy is cold only when they're ON?! ok im kinda feeling weird now..hehe a bunch of people ba naman kasi told me love stories! i mean gah...it all piled up! im confused tuloy! anyway...im hungry...

hehe btw.. i talked with my friends...trish, gela nad rainer...and i miss them so much, tas they made me miss them more pa! hehe... i want to go back to manila and play and do weird stuff with them again..*sigh* and the kylie mini vans days...*sigh* hehe i want to talk to them again soon...*sob*...someday..on March..im guna see them graduate! hehe i'm saving up for my tickets na hihi,,,so there..:3 Love ya guys....kuya rai i wna tug your shirt again...hehe when we go to malls, remember? i always tug your shirt...then Trish i wna hug you, your like the girl i always hug and have silly stuff on going hehe... i wna hugg u right now...i need it..(coz an annoying dude in skul hugged me,,rarr,,,)... angela i want to talk to you about kylie minivans...and our surprise plans for everyone...T.T i miss guys...*sob*

im hungry na tlga....*goes down and eats*