Dear Jesus,
For the past few days, weeks, i've been sensing that every time i enter a contest, i never win no matter how perfect i think my entry is.. in school, in the net, on my studies, everywhere....its as if i was born a loser... and today in school we had a costume and collage contest, then again i lost... when i got home, i was feeling all gloomy. I said to myself..."Am i failing at everything already?" every bad, negative thing came into my mind...So i planned to take a bath and cool off...
Then, a question struck me... a question that really changed my whole perspective... The question is, "Maybe your failing at everything, coz God wants you to learn to be humble, or he's telling you that, you may not be a winner for teh people, but for Him?! you most certainly are..." Man, those lats words really struck me...
I just realized that i've been trying so hard to please all the people around me, so they will like me or they'd recognize me... or even simply 'to be noticed' but then, i was wrong.... It should be you that they see in me... people already expect alot from me, and at times i find it boring or 'lazy' and now i know why i feel that way..its because i take all the credit! me, me, ME! i'm sick and tried of that word... i want to change... i want people to see you in me, and be humble...i want to learn to make right decisions in my life, and realize that i cannot please everybody no matter how hard i try...
I am really a winner in God's eye, and that's way enough for me than being a winner in the eyes of me. I mean i thought about it, i mean why should i please the people around me, when its you that i should pleasE? i mean being a winner in your eyes is far better than being a winner in the eyes of men... Thank you Lord for making me feel better now and teaching me a great lesson...*hug* Thank you...
Your loving daughter, Shiriel.
(PS. Lord? I never even liked my costume! but then i gave my best and became a winner in your eyes, nothing more can be greater than that..*hug*)