Foul Mood...

Dear Jesus,

Today i had a serious foul mood in school... i have no idea, but since i woke up, i felt that i was so weak... Then as i went to school, i was asked to pray in our first period... and to my annoyance, while i was praying one of my male classmates were talking! as in loudly! i can't believe them! i mean they can't respect you! i got so mad that i wanetd to tell him "SHUT UP!" but i controlled my feelings and sat down... i asked his sister to tell him to stop talking when someone's praying... but in the end i told her not to... For half a day, i had a foul mood because of that... i felt sad and i wanted to shout at my male classmates and tell them to repsect you...but then i knew you didn't want it to be that way... you want me to love my enemies... I'm sorry for that... its just that i couldn't take it, they've been doing it since forever... I wanted to cry in front of them and ask them why can't they respect You?...

Then as the afternoon came, i began to calm down and regain my preppy and childish self again. But then, i was asked to pray. So i shouted, "Let's pray" everyone heard me and i said it thrice for them to really hear it, and i'm gald that they didn't speak this time... This time they kept their mouths shut... Maybe that's what i am supposed to do, ask them to pray with me... Thank you for telling me these..:3

Well, today i felt empty... i felt that if i speak of your name, everyone will dislike me... but then... i felt no hindrance... I immediatley said to myself, "Jesus is my best friend, and i shouldn't be ashamed to speak of His name..." So starting now, i will speak my mind.... i will tell my classmates that cheating is wrong, using God's name in vain is very wrong, and disrespecting You in prayer is horribly wrong... Its time for me to stand up for you, its time for me to shout your name and praise You... I don't care if all my friends in school will be annoyed at me, for telling them the truth, coz i know i have you and i have my friends back in Manila... My real friends... The gang... I mean even when we're far apart, we're still friends, and that's what true friendship means... Thanks for giving me the friends of my dreams... and thank you for Loving me for who i am... I will make a stand for you now! and i hope other teenagers will also do...

LOve you so much Jesus, YOur daughter, SHiriel...:3