Am i ready?...

It's funny how we teenage girls want guys to fall over heels for us... I mean, admit it... as girls we tend to dream about guys liking us, or courting us, or simply giving us chocolates or flowers... Its normal for a teenage girl to think that way, coz hey! i am one of those girls...but you know?... there's one thing that crept into my mind... one question that really struck me... and that is...Am i truly ready for such thing?...

Well it all started when i was smiling at a guy just awhile ago in school, and the way he reacted was so cute! He was so bashful...*giggle*... so i kept on smiling at him... and then there was this girl who said that our age difference was so far! haha its true! he's a 2nd yr and im a senior... i knew she was just joking, i was so kilig when the guy looks at me... then as my friends were teasing me to him... that question crept into my mind... i have no idea why it did...but it just did...

Then i tried observing my own actions...and i realized that the way i act isn't as mature as i thought i was...honestly? i'm still immature...i may give advices to 'lovers' but i can't follow my own advices!... and not only that... i'm still irresponsible... i don't want my lover to always worry about me, coz im irresponsible... Honestly? i really want a guy to fall over his heels just for me, be sweet and thoughtful towards me, and i in exchange give homemade gifts to him... but then i ask myself again..."am i ready?"... and i guess you know the answer...

Not yet.