`Random`

Well i was supposed to watch a movie with my friend today, who's actually leaving davao tomorrow...so i asked permission from my dad...and he said no... i was so friggin' down and sad, yet i had a calm but still gloomy feeling... but despite it all, God talked to me... God made me realize something...

That He has a great puprose...

Rather than sit here and get mad at my dad for not allowing me, i should think of the positive side of it. I am so focused on the negative side like...

Why didn't he allow me?! he is so strict!
He is so KJ!
He keeps me in this house like im a prisoner!
He is so unfair! there's no classes naman tomorrow!
Why can't he understand me?!

Pretty negative huh? but true right? and yet, it has a bright side...

What was his purpose not to allow me? Was he protecting me from something? Dad sure loves me...:-)
Why didn't he let me have fun? Come to think of it, was i responsible in the house fro this week?...
He keeps me safe herein the house, come to think of it, there's alot i can do here..:3
My dad sure thinks of my health, i know he knows im tired today...
Dad surely can understand me, but what can i say? He knows better than i..:-)

See?... awhile ago, i thought so negatively, but as i prayed and asked God's help, he showed me the positive side of my "complaints".... God sure is always there...All i can say is, when i have a problem there's only two people into whom ic an lean on...

1. God who is always there to make me understand, and help me... :-)
2. My dad/mom who knows what's best for me, and who knows better than i... :-)

That's what every teenager should know, "Parents know best, coz they are better than us, teenagers" stop being proud and have a "i-know-everything-attitude" coz someday, you'll regret it...

I'm hungry...

Ready?...

Haha, i'm here again...

Anyway, i just finished talking to my friends outside...(my school is our neighbor...my classmates usually go to my home...xD)... Hehe continuation of teh above...

I know i said i am not ready for a relationship with a guy... but for some reason... i want to be close with a guy... to know how men think, how they react, and how they feel... you might not believe it, but girls are very different from boys...its like Man and aliens...

But i'm scared to fall for him, or he will fall for me... i don't like that to happen, coz, i know i am not yet ready... i still have to mature, to become a real woman... a woman who can take care of herself and so as other people. A woman who can really work for God, so i can put God first before 'him'...A woman who has enough strength to endure and fix up a quarrel with my mate... i know you might ask why i take this things so seriously... well i really do. Having a relationship with a guy isn't just a game we play... its reality, a choice, a commitment. Great things start with small things... So a relationship can start from a simple mere crush. That's why i refrain from having serious crushes, but its friggin' too hard!... So i fill my mind up with arts and music, yet it can't...what can i do?! i am in a world full of men! i can't run away from them?!... But then, if i give up now, and clear up all my barriers and let myself fall inlove, won't it be unfair for my future mate?... So i clearly see now, that me? Shiriel Elise D. Magalong, isn't ready to fall inlove...

Am i ready?...

It's funny how we teenage girls want guys to fall over heels for us... I mean, admit it... as girls we tend to dream about guys liking us, or courting us, or simply giving us chocolates or flowers... Its normal for a teenage girl to think that way, coz hey! i am one of those girls...but you know?... there's one thing that crept into my mind... one question that really struck me... and that is...Am i truly ready for such thing?...

Well it all started when i was smiling at a guy just awhile ago in school, and the way he reacted was so cute! He was so bashful...*giggle*... so i kept on smiling at him... and then there was this girl who said that our age difference was so far! haha its true! he's a 2nd yr and im a senior... i knew she was just joking, i was so kilig when the guy looks at me... then as my friends were teasing me to him... that question crept into my mind... i have no idea why it did...but it just did...

Then i tried observing my own actions...and i realized that the way i act isn't as mature as i thought i was...honestly? i'm still immature...i may give advices to 'lovers' but i can't follow my own advices!... and not only that... i'm still irresponsible... i don't want my lover to always worry about me, coz im irresponsible... Honestly? i really want a guy to fall over his heels just for me, be sweet and thoughtful towards me, and i in exchange give homemade gifts to him... but then i ask myself again..."am i ready?"... and i guess you know the answer...

Not yet.

Am i cold?...

Remember about the friend i told you about? The one who i became real close with in a very short time? well to be honest, i did like him at first coz he acted the way my crush in manila did...but then as we were txting and hanging out, i liked him for who he was... but then i felt that it wasn't right to developed feelings for him, coz first he treats me as a little sister, next he's leaving soon.... so i started calling him older brother, for the feelings to fade...and well i was successful! :3 hehe i treated him like an older brother and well we became more closer ^^...so days passed, when we're together we usually laugh, because we act so weird! xD honestly we do! we're like real siblings! hehe and that made me miss my real kuya...anyway back to the topic! And then i heard from a friend...that he also likes me... and guess what? his reason is the same as mine! he's leaving soon....man when i heard that...i didn't feel a thing...i don't know why...but i didn't feel Kileg nor sad at all...so i got confused...i mean why didn't i react?...which is weird for me coz im so emotional...i just realized that maybe...i really don't like him anymore...but then...am i cold?...

ANyway! so much for being cold...i think...im sacred of having feelings towards a guy...first of all I KNOW he'll mess up my dreams...second, i KNOW he'll hurt me in the end,...third, I KNOW i'll be more mature than him,....fourth, I KNOW he'll not be serious about me,...Fifth, I KNOW he'll make my life harder...i know my perspective over relationships is wrong...but hey... al im asking is..am i cold? or am i just a normal teen girl?...

There's this guy iin school that's a cold dude, as everyone says..but wen i got the chance to talk to him, he wasn't cold at all! i mean, does a girl realized a guy is cold only when they're ON?! ok im kinda feeling weird now..hehe a bunch of people ba naman kasi told me love stories! i mean gah...it all piled up! im confused tuloy! anyway...im hungry...

hehe btw.. i talked with my friends...trish, gela nad rainer...and i miss them so much, tas they made me miss them more pa! hehe... i want to go back to manila and play and do weird stuff with them again..*sigh* and the kylie mini vans days...*sigh* hehe i want to talk to them again soon...*sob*...someday..on March..im guna see them graduate! hehe i'm saving up for my tickets na hihi,,,so there..:3 Love ya guys....kuya rai i wna tug your shirt again...hehe when we go to malls, remember? i always tug your shirt...then Trish i wna hug you, your like the girl i always hug and have silly stuff on going hehe... i wna hugg u right now...i need it..(coz an annoying dude in skul hugged me,,rarr,,,)... angela i want to talk to you about kylie minivans...and our surprise plans for everyone...T.T i miss guys...*sob*

im hungry na tlga....*goes down and eats*

The Ant Bully...

Hey hey hey! eheh i watched the ant bully today! man the drawing was so awesome...:3 i like their tatoos in the body hihihi it looks so tribal-ish xD... you know? we can actually learn alot of things about ants... here's some...
1. They teach us to take down things slowy...
2. Be organized! always be in line...
3. Never let a friend alone...
4. Always work as one...
5. Despite our differences, we should work together to form something amazing...
6. Never loose hope...
7. Open to any challenge...
8. Balances work with fun...
9. Follows only one leader...(for us its God)
10. Works for the people not for themselves only.
11. Never gets tired of sweets..xD hehe

fine the last one was a joke..but hey its true! :3 yah know? if we do this 10 things in the real world? i bet our world would be a one big, organized colony, that everyone would love...

Inspired...^^

Hehe today i'm so inspired to draw more...coz in my art site someone gave me a note telling me that my art speaks....it means my art has a certain impact to the viewers and im very glad...:3 they said my art makes them smile..and art is my passion...i'm glad i can make others smile through my art..:3 that's my dream hehe... i'll do my best to get better to make more people smile.. ^~^

ANywei..about school...this day was so weird! i mean we went to school but there weren't any classes..NOT AT ALL!!! we we're like sleeping in the class, playing the guitar, palying hide and seek and all that! it was totally boring in the morning! *faints* but then i asked God to help me do something productive...and God answered my prayer! man i wrote some ideas for my story and God just kept on flooding me with ideas! my hands even sweat so hard..xD i like wrote 10 pages of ideas! Grabe! i was so happy and excited while i write the ideas..God is so nice..*dreams* hehe anyway...i passed every single exam!!!!!WAHAHA i'm so glad and thankful of God! :3 hehe i wonder what honor place i could get...hehe..i was so happy..but i think i got a little bit proud...so i apologized to Jesus...and afterwards i felt good. :D hehe..

hmm...oh yea! i have this friend here in Davao which i met a week ago, but it felt like we knew each other for years! he's a sweet person and caring and funny! he always makes me laugh..hehe at first, yeah i did have a crush on him...but when i called him "kuya" it all faded away! as in i treated him like an older brother...and he treated me like a little sister! i missed my kuya so much tuloy!!!!T.T....hayy... and then he's guna leave for batangas on monday..T.T so saddening...im guna lost a brother again..=,c God has a purpose...anyway! he makes me smile and laugh every single day and he's englishero that's why i have fun talking with him...:3 he acts like Kyle btw..hehe but this guy is more Kuya-ish and he's 19!:D hehe imma guna miss him so much...but i miss my brother more...Kuya kasi...hayy..

That's it! see you tom!*smiles*

My Very own DESIGN!

Mwahah i am so friggin' proud of myself...xD i did this whole template! (*cough*edited to be exact*cough*) hehe but the BG is made by me and i adjusted a whole lot of other things!! :3 took me...1,2,3....7 hours to finish! WAH! i never thought i was infront of the pc that long!! but its ok..atleast i finished my own made, fine edited, blog!!!! ^_^

Ok enough of that...

ANyway! Davao is a pretty nice place to live....but i miss my friends in Manila...to be exact? my Shekinah pals, The Gang, and my churchmates... i have fewer friends here...but i know God has a plan for me.. so i just havta hang on a little longer...:3

Hmmm...i haven't drawn nor CGed for 2 months now..i have to draw something soon...V.V what's new with me?..well i haven't found a person to really cling into...kinda hard to find a real friend...*sigh*... its someone's birthday tomorrow *cough*Kyle*cough*..xD hehe i still havent forgotten! i'm planning to greet him this midnight...so0O...im guna be puyat mwahah! i feel so hyper today...coz our exams ended today..hehe i failed 3 subjects i think....T.T..well out of 20 subj. i guess thats ok..hehe :3 i'm so happy i passed trigo!!! hehe i got a 64/80 im so happieh...:3 anyway... everything is cheap here in Davao! hehe i got to buy more stuff for my creative purposes...xD haha i feel so silly now...and when someone speaks in english here they think that person is sosyal no wonder some people didn't talk to me before! xD hehe i'm so kuleet in school... i feel like a little kid running in the halls sometimes... hehe coz there's this guy who never stops makin' me batok in the head, and never stops teasing me...we may act like dogs and cats but we're friends... :3 and yes... he's a HE... anyway! gotza go now... i wana take up some quizzes...take it with me!! www.quizilla.com anwyay! leave a message! :3

"Spark"

Well...today's kinda weird...i'm this new girl in davao and well i chatted with some of my friends from manila...and fo some reason they really didn't care, well except for one girll...(V)... i felt so bad and down...i mean its as if we weren't friends at all.. and i friggin' miss them and all that... so much for friends.... now i'm so at a loss of real friends.... =,c...

Then there's this dude that i met 2 days ago...but when we talk its as if we knew each other for a long time! but maybe its because we're both childish and funnieh..xD...hehe he's like the perfect friend i could have! but he's leaving davao in two weeks... =.c so much for friends again...

i really wonder when i can have that real friend...someone i could show the real me...someone i could talk about God...

But i trust in God...i know He has a purpose... i have no reason to complain to His works... :3 sooner or later i know i will have the right friend...and sooner or later i'll feel at ease and happy again...:3